Anxious
I'm not really sure what's going on with me tonight, but I'm feeling more anxious than I have in quite some time. Maybe it's the anticipation of going back to work after so long off. Maybe it's the idea of moving to NY. Maybe it's the idea that I want to do something other than teach, but I really have no idea what that would be. I guess it's all of those things. I hate the unknown, and my future right now just seems so questionable. I would like to feel settled and happy. Does anyone feel that way? I wonder if that's an unachievable goal.
-B
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B-
(I may babble again, I am getting into this nasty habit of drinking and blogging. :)
I would imagine you would feel unsettled and restless now. This was a time you expected to be completely different in you life than it is.
The positive you posted on my blog in regard to being able to make all the decisions is a double-edged sword for you. It's nice sometimes, but def. hell in another sense, like this one.
The only advice I can give you is don't force your hand. I think when we try and force something too quickly, when we truly aren't ready for it, that's when we make our mistakes.
My 2 cents.
By the way, I do think that everyone feels that way at differnt times. Look for the little things in life that bring you happiness while this is all brewing.
Ok, enough drinking and blogging!!
Cheers. :D
I think it is possible to feel settled and happy, but I wonder if it's possible long term. I think people go through times of contentment and times of upheaval.
If only there were some sort of key... -m
I thought what Slacker Mom said about looking for the little things in a day that make you happy is great advice. We spend too much energy saying if only this and if only that, and meanwhile we miss all the little stuff that can make us smile. John Lennon said life is what happens while you're busy making plans. Anyway, you love teaching. I hope you're not going to change just because of the psychic.
Mel said the same thing (about teaching). I know I love teaching, but certain things (or people) are making it difficult for me right now, and it's tempting to do something else. I would want to stay in the field of education, but maybe I could do something with my masters' degree? I don't know. Did you look at the house? Going to visit you always messes me up for a few days.
always :O)
Boy I had a lot to catch up on ...........Enjoy what you are doing whle you are dong it. The rest will come(easier said than done)N
Hmm...how can it be that John Lennon's quote was used w/n a day of each other on your blog and mine?
Hmm...dunno why that struck me. Maybe 'cuz I'm still all about "divine" coincidences. Ha ha...
Anyway, it's all about surrendering. Accept where you're at and know that all the questions are exactly the answers. I'll post a quote on this just for you on my blog. :-)
Have a good day!
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