Random Facts About Me
(who else would they be about?)

1. I have always been afraid of the rain. I'm not sure where the fear stems from, but I think it may be from watching a movie when I was very young about oceans being formed. My fear has gotten much better over the past two years, but there are times like today, when they rain is coming down so hard that my sump pump never stops actively going off, that the anxiety is impossible to ignore. It doesn't help that I have a tenant living in the apartment in my basement, and I am worried that water will flood it.
2. According to my family, I am a very picky eater, but according to my friends, I am among the most adventuresome.
3. I will avoid going to the bathroom in public restrooms until it is such an emergency, I can's see a way around it.
4. This is my first Mother's Day not focused on Joe's death. (2 years ago was his funeral, last year was his memorial service.)
   
5. I am jealous of mom's with husbands who have possibly let their wives sleep in, and maybe even will give them some time to be alone today.
6. I hate the way I look in pictures right now, but can't seem to do anything about it.
7. I love setting up the train tracks with my boys, and watching the trains travel over said tracks. I may enjoy it more than they do.
8. I sucked my thumb until I was 9, and miss the comfort that it gave me. (but no worries, I will not be sucking my thumb again.)
9. I miss sex like you wouldn't believe. But not enough to just have it for the sake of having it. I would like it to mean something. But man, do I miss it.
10. I love being a mom.
11. I hate doing laundry more than any other chore. It is never done completely. As soon as one load is done, there is another load needing to be washed. It makes me crazy.
12. I love driving a mini van, even though I swore for years that I would never ever own one.
13. I could eat cereal 3 times a day, and feel satisfied.
14. I am convinced that Mint Chocolate chip ice cream is a cruel invention created by the makers of diet plans.
15. I have the best friends in the world. But I feel like they are much better friends to me than I am to them.
16. I wish depression wasn't ever a part of my mood.
17. Laughing is one of my favorite activities.
18. I miss reading. I really miss reading.
19. Before Jacob was born, I swore he wouldn't watch tv. Now he has the whole noggin line up memorized.
20. I am torn between staying here, and moving to NY.
21. I miss cooking and baking.
22. I am a good liar about non-important things, but suck at keeping secrets.
23. Sometimes I hate everyone that's married, just because they're still married.
24. I love being a teacher, but I really want to work in a bookstore instead.
25. I am irreversibly messed up.
26. Starting this blog has been better than therapy for me.
27. I worry that I will never meet the right guy for me, and will grow old all alone.
28. I worry that I will get cancer and die before my kids are grown.
29. I hate that I worry so much.
30. I look forward to Mondays.
31. (amazingly, I could keep going. But am slightly doubtful that anyone would even read to # 30, so I think I'll stop here. Oh wait. # 31. I'm narcissistic.)
    

-b