Why Being A Widow Sucks
(Reason # 277)
I miss my husband
I miss my boyfriend
How can I miss them both at the same time?
I want my husband
I want my boyfriend
How can I want them both at the same time?
I dream about my husband
and I cry
I dream about my boyfriend
and I smile
Some days I wish I could join my husband
Some days I get so excited thinking about a possible future with my boyfriend
I miss my old life
I like my new life
I love two men
and only one is still living
I wonder if this ever gets easier
(Reason # 277)
I miss my husband
I miss my boyfriend
How can I miss them both at the same time?
I want my husband
I want my boyfriend
How can I want them both at the same time?
I dream about my husband
and I cry
I dream about my boyfriend
and I smile
Some days I wish I could join my husband
Some days I get so excited thinking about a possible future with my boyfriend
I miss my old life
I like my new life
I love two men
and only one is still living
I wonder if this ever gets easier
-b
7 comments:
i don't know if it ever gets easier but wanted to let you know that you have company. i feel like i could have written what you said-- but you say it so much better- never knew exactly what a life conflicted meant- now i do....
I'm sorry:( (((hugs))
Sounds confusing to me. I hadn't thought about it quite that way before.
Hang in there. :o)
I know you've heard it before. Times does heal. It does get easier. Different amount of time for everyone.
I'm sorry for your loss but excited for your future.
*hugs*
Surreal is a word that often expresses how I find the widow experience. I feel as though it fits your situation. I mean, who ever would've thought you'd be missing both your husband and your boyfriend, in love with both your husband and your boyfriend, and for that to be a legitimate feeling with no cheating or disloyalty involved?
The widda experience adds a new dimension to everything.
Ali
This sums it up pretty well for me, B. Mind if I link to it?
Of course not! Go for it.
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