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Life is hard right now. No, not with T. Everything is fine there.
But everything else is hard.
School is the hardest it's ever been for me. My class is by far, the most challenging class in my ten years of teaching. By the time I leave school I am literally exhausted to the core. My every bone aches.
But I'm not done. I have had a meeting every day after school this week, and tomorrow I have my graduate class from 7-10.
The boys are equally exhausted when I pick them up, and we bicker like crazy until their bedtime. I have not been proud of my parenting skills this past week at all. But I am so completely done by the time I get home, that I just can't handle doing everything that needs to be done.
And I resent doing this alone. I really hate being a single parent. It just sucks beyond words. No one is here to help me with anything. Nothing is done if I don't do it, and I just am so sick and tired of doing it!
Sorry for the vent. I'm sitting here crying and feeling sorry for myself. Like that's gonna help anything.
This year is going to be a tough one...
-b
Life is hard right now. No, not with T. Everything is fine there.
But everything else is hard.
School is the hardest it's ever been for me. My class is by far, the most challenging class in my ten years of teaching. By the time I leave school I am literally exhausted to the core. My every bone aches.
But I'm not done. I have had a meeting every day after school this week, and tomorrow I have my graduate class from 7-10.
The boys are equally exhausted when I pick them up, and we bicker like crazy until their bedtime. I have not been proud of my parenting skills this past week at all. But I am so completely done by the time I get home, that I just can't handle doing everything that needs to be done.
And I resent doing this alone. I really hate being a single parent. It just sucks beyond words. No one is here to help me with anything. Nothing is done if I don't do it, and I just am so sick and tired of doing it!
Sorry for the vent. I'm sitting here crying and feeling sorry for myself. Like that's gonna help anything.
This year is going to be a tough one...
-b
12 comments:
Sweetie,
I am right there with you. As I beef up my working hours, my home/personal hours are disappearing. Or if I have the hours, I am out of energy to do what I need to do with them.
One thing that has worked for me in the past & occassional I set up for now, is to find a mother's helper. Not someone to take the kids without you but to be with all of you.
If you could pay an 11 year old $5 to hang out with you from 5-6:30 or even just from 5-6, that might ease things up. You can be talking with one kid while the other is with the helper. Or one of you could be getting the table ready or helping feed a kid or cleaning up or putting away clothes or picking out the next days clothes or whatever. Sometimes just having another person around helps get you through this time. It is the crazy hour-for everyone.
And this type of help allows you to be with your family and just have another pair of hands.
And again, as I keep reminding myself, new routines take time to adjust. Each week should get easier as you get back into a new groove.
With l,
I'm sorry it's all hitting you so hard right now. This too shall pass.
You are probably right, it will be challenging. But you can do it. You will whip your class into shape - maybe not like usual, but better than right now. It will get easier, it will. Hang in!
You can do it B!! I have complete faith in your abilities to come through stuff shining. You are a strong woman and everything will be ok. (((HUGS)))
(((hugs)))hope it gets better soon...
What you have to do is hard. And it sucks that you have to do it alone.
How many more weeks 'til term break? (There's less than there was a week ago...)
Ali
i am sorry that this transition feels like an impossible one. i am sorry that you are doing it alone. you will solve these problems as you have done so many times in the past-with courage and strength.
i think you are an amazing mother and teacher. i know because i have observed you closely in both roles. you are allowed to hate it sometimes and resent it as well. it's only healthy to feel this way. if you did not, i'd worry. i am here for you if you need me, in whatever role.
i admire you. thanks for sharing.
Hey there-
I'm sorry.Things have a tendency to get worst before they get better...so from the sounds of it your on your way to better.
September can be challenging. You had two years with an amazing class. This class will come along in their own way. Give them a chance for your magic to work.
Being a parent is the hardest job that I've ever had. What you are doing is tough, but since the beginning you've given it your best. Luckily your best is better than most peoples: )
Everything will get better...I know it will. I think R's suggestion was a really good one.
J
Oh B, I can relate. Being an only parent stinks. This wasn't the way things were supposed to be. Big hugs to you.
Hi, B:)
I hope you are feeling a little better. I think I've said this before, but you are a very brave woman, even if it sometimes sucks to be one. I cant give advice, I dont know how this must feel. Big hugs to you, and Jacob and Joshua.
((B))
Hugs B. Sometimes we put too much on ourselves to be "the best" parents...
Yuo feed them, clothe them, love them, give them a roof over their heads with cozy beds. That is our responsibility.
Anything extra is just gravy. You'll get back to the gravy when you get a chnace to breathe.
So sorry it's rough right now, and it's got to suck being a single parent.
It stinks that things are so rough for you right now. Hang in there.
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